This June

by Veronica Foale on June 6, 2010

in Me

This June,

I would like to come out the other side intact.

I would like to manage to stave off my broken-ness.

I would like to come through whole and okay.

Because,

last June

I didn’t.

And I can’t fathom doing that again.

Last June,

I ended up broken

and tired

and sad.

Last June,

was like being hit by a train

repeatedly.

And some things haven’t healed,

and some people haven’t been forgiven.

And they won’t.

Because

wow

that was low.

and I’m broken,

because I can’t scream the words at you I want to

and because I can’t talk about it any more.

So this June,

I want to come through whole.

I don’t want to feel kicked when I am down,

or strung tightly like a bow string,

choking on what I want to say,

but am too polite to.

This June,

I want to be okay.

And I want to tell you,

to go fuck yourself.

You’re not a nice human being.

And it’s your fault I can’t cry and it’s your fault I can’t talk anymore.

Because I want to tell you.

And I can’t,

because you don’t need to hear it.

Because being kicked when you’re down isn’t fun.

And aren’t you glad I’m not like you.

Brenda June 6, 2010 at 3:24 pm

Here’s hoping that June would play very nice with you.XO

kim(frogpondsrock) June 6, 2010 at 3:28 pm

“You’re not a nice human being.”

Now isn’t that the understatement of the century.

I love you sweetheart, you were the apple of your Grandmother’s eye. Mum loved you so much and she was so incredibly proud of you. It has been a hard two years pumpkin and there will be light at the end of this tunnel eventually. I think putting voice to your hurt can only be a good thing for you my darling girl.

xxx

and “they” can go fuck themselves.

Watershedd June 6, 2010 at 3:28 pm

Great poem. Whatever happened, it left an deep and indelible mark that this suggests may never completely heal. I know the pit that leads to the place that gives such emotions. Hope this June is indeed, peaceful.

Mary June 6, 2010 at 6:29 pm

Hi Veronica
That’s a powerful poem with pain & anger still evident.
Was it liberating to write it? Hope it brought some release.
Looking forward to meeting up on Thursday ~

Marylin June 6, 2010 at 9:23 pm

I hope that writing this out has helped sweety, I know it does for me. *hugs* xx

Barbara June 7, 2010 at 5:13 am

Fingers crossed for you that this June is kind. xxx

Kristin June 7, 2010 at 10:12 am

Having a big heart means not only that you have the compassion to hold your tongue where others may not, but that you feel the pain a little more deeply when they don’t. Wishing you a peaceful June. xo

Glen June 8, 2010 at 1:07 am

yoinks! the power at your fingertips !

river June 8, 2010 at 7:41 pm

I’m wishing you a more peaceful June too.

Tracey June 8, 2010 at 8:44 pm

Fuck ’em, sweetheart.

Hear Mum Roar June 9, 2010 at 11:26 am

Come on, you can do it! Practise on me. Tell me to go fuck myself:P

EmmaK June 11, 2010 at 12:34 am

Hope you have a wonderful, refreshing, energizing June. Hugs Emma

Mick Rossendell June 22, 2010 at 10:40 am

I’m Sorry, I truely am

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