The time slipped away from me and when I stopped to take stock, I realised that it was September already and months had passed. My daughter turned five (FIVE – where do the years go?) and grew an attitude and my son spends his days clinging to my ankles.
This is life, the time passes and the world turns, until it feels like everything has changed (but nothing has changed) and you’ve been stuck spinning in circles like a spinning top.
How did I get to this point?
I sat down to write, a few days ago and got stuck on all of the things that had happened. A sum total of All Of The Things That Have Gone Wrong and I stopped, stepped away from the computer, and had a panic attack. Surely that wasn’t me? (It was you.)
I didn’t want to think about all of the reasons that I am Not Coping right now, until they slammed me in the face with the Not Copingness of themselves and I had to stop thinking.
Everything will be okay, if I can just stop thinking about all of the reasons why things will never be okay.
Then, everything will be okay.
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8 responses to “Where did my year go?”
Everything WILL be okay. Think of what is going to be okay; it helps take your mind away from unrealistic “not okay” thoughts.
Everything WILL be okay.
Dont think about things that you can’t change today. Think about them on the day that you can change them.
And don’t be afraid to ask for help.
Couldn’t agree more, frogspondrock. “One day at a time” applies to life in general, not just alcoholics.
The human mind isn’t designed to function properly when trying to juggle three time-zones, namely past, present & future. The past & the future don’t exist in reality. The present is the only thing that we can truly get a handle on….& you can make asking for help a part of that. 🙂
hang in there sweetie…………………….time tramps on regardless……..
just try to breathe and take one minute at a time if you have to(this often works for me)
hugs
Everything will be ok.
Un-original comment, but true : )
I just realised my comment might come across as presumptuous – since I don’t know the whole story! I’m sorry. Hope things get better soon.
*hugs* and love. Celebrate every teensy tiny thing that goes right, no matter how small.
My mum always says to look at the big picture, but I know that where Max is concerned, I’d go mental with worry if I did that, so although I heed her advice with some things in life, I don’t when it comes to my wee man.
Love you lots sweetheart. xxxx
Hi Veronica, hope you don’t mind me sharing this link – just to let you know you are not alone in the darkness. Right now things are fairly good for me, but it is not always so – http://alisondennehy.blogspot.com/2011/09/after-conversation-with-karen-sweetman.html?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=Feed%3A+blogspot%2FYMvFK+%28Oculus+Mundi.++Failte%2C+weary+traveller.%29